I figure my 500th tumblr post should be something significant.

I just want to remind myself that what I’m doing right now in London is probably the most significant thing I’ve ever done and ever may do. It’s something that I will remember for the rest of my life.

I’ve said goodbye to many people I love back home and I haven’t seen any of them for 4 months. The scary thing is there may potentially be another 12 months before I see them again.

The fact that I will see them again in the future makes all of this incredibly worth while.

It’s time I realised, I am just like everybody else.

It’s not a submission, it’s a realisation.

I gain an unusual amount of confidence and satisfaction from getting things done.  I’m really not hard to please.

This “life” thing didn’t really turn out like I had planned.  But then again, does it work out for anybody?

I sometimes come across or hear about people that have everything (that I want).  I wonder if they are content or whether they still want more, or less for that matter?

I’m not sure what exactly the Dickens novel Great Expectations is about but I’m sure it’s about a child who grows up expecting great things to happen but is fundamentally disappointed.

I might go and pick up a copy of Great Expectations tomorrow.  Seems an appropriate book to read at the moment despite the stack of books waiting on my shelf…

Oh and.. Merry Christmas!

As I sit here at 1:32am on Christmas morning (listening to Kiss of Life by Friendly Fires) I’m beginning to remember what Christmas Eve meant to me as a kid.  Basically, a lot more.  I’m at that age now where it’s just another day!  A day spent with a great friend is much more anticipated and enjoyable than Christmas.  I guess that’s just all apart of getting older.

I’m looking forward to a different Christmas next year.  One being spent in a (hopefully) white and cold town of London with new friends, new possibilities and new sight.

I’m essentially all booked in… leaving 27th May 2010 on a one-way ticket.

Someone kind of insinuated today at work that I may be in the running for a new role that will be created next year: some kind of transport analyst role.

Strangely enough I’m left with a kind of dilemma.

I’ve got to start exercising again, and stop smoking those social smokes!  Urgh!

I’m 27 now… what a shit age…

Bed time now.

THIS IS ME..

I’ve just realised why I’ve been having so much trouble sleeping… I’m excited!

For the first time in years I feel know I have something to look forward to.

In May next year I’m moving to London not to begin a new chapter in my life but to begin a new book.

This feeling in my chest, which sometimes could be considered pain, has baffled me for months but now I know what it is.

It’s a burning desire in my heart to achieve what I want to achieve!

This feeling is everything, it’s everything that I’ve become.  It’s the clothes I wear, the music I listen to, the creativity that is constantly running through my mind, the endless need to do something and the unwillingness to not let this feeling go away!

I’m feeling what I wish I felt when I was 19 years old but I cannot change that. I’m 26 and this is me now.  It’s time to do with it, what needs to be done.

So until I leave, I will not sleep, I will not tire and I will not concede.

• Disappointed
• Going to watch (500) Days of Summer tomorrow
• Absolutely cannot wait to receive my new camera on Monday
• Friendships a funny thing, isn’t it!
• It annoys me that I’ve started developing an interest in things recently that I could have used ages ago to help me decide a path in life
• I kind of feel I have nothing unless I go overseas next year
• I don’t like this new fascination that spiders have found in me
• Really didn’t need that McDonald’s meal tonight
• It’s 2:10am on Sunday morning, I should probably go to bed!

• my late-at-night hair looks better than my morning hair
• my toothpaste has a cinnamon aftertaste
• i’m looking forward to listening to the Shout Out Louds tomorrow
• i’m thinking of changing my twitter name to “lonely_boy”
• my latest tv show addictions include Criminal Minds and Gossip Girl
• i have big dreams — and wonder if i can make them happen
• it’s 12:14 am on a friday morning and i don’t intend on going to bed yet